January
Crisp winter mornings
Feel the new job changing
Laugh at political mistakes
Making a joke out of misery
Thousands of deaths
February
An unexpected change of course
I hoped to retain what I gained
Looking outside for wistful memories
Stepping into the green
March
Often when authority is challenged
Flowers grow by the bedside
And a new eternity is noticed
Feeling into my strength
Writing new poems in a workshop
April
Sunnier times ahead
It takes courage to listen deeply
Sensual pleasure explored
Planning trips to go abroad
May
Silence beats still
A head clamouring for rest
I loved her to the moment
Where we sat in the Peaks
Walking on water, floating like a stream
June
Summer days, warm weather
Breathing new life in
Season of growth, gardening all day to pluck
Wondered listlessly around protests and spaces
July
Ancient ways restored in practice
Picking up where I left off
Happy to breathe, write and recite
Nakedness explored by touching every part
August
30th birthday, a jubilee celebration
Bringing community together
Grateful for loved ones
A stirring abundance of connection
September
New full-time job keeps future dreams alive
I realised death and Nirvana
A change seems calmer, inviting presence
October
Falling out of love to break up
Rain dripping, leaves feeling
The cold brushes my toes
Explained premises re-written
Tantamount to pleasure
November
A job secured, feeling positive about change
Learnt to forgive, open up my heart after a retreat
Focus on making a difference
December
Every wave is acknowledged
A break to regenerate
Wish to step outside, the cold bites in a harsh fervour
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